20100311

[juxtaposition] beyond / the wind-up bird and tuesday's women

(I started this entry over a year ago, but refrained from publishing it. It's nothing substantial, devoid of relevance, a muddy pile of pseudo-observational, non-reflective associations. A mind's meandering, without τέλος.)

There is something undefinably strange about Murakami's stories which as I've found during the years of reading his works, particularly his short prose, responds to me in a way no other author's writing does. It has an intuitive, irrational appeal, one that I cannot put my finger on. It's positively simplistic and yet, whenever I read a story from my favourite book of his, The Elephant Vanishes, a force of inexplicable nature starts minding its business on the terrains of my brain, ending in uplift. Its origin unknown, it's a sentiment not unlike the unease that befalls me at the sight of industrial parks, only that the latter is of course entirely unpleasant. Similarly, when I was younger, I used to have short episodic experiences during which I sensed an entity of sorts behind my back, out to haunt me, generating a feeling not unlike the one sensible in the Winkie's Dream scene in Mulholland Drive. In my mind, I must have personified that fear in the form of a wolf and during that time, I also happened to develop a dread towards listening to my LP of Prokofiev's Peter and the Wolf. End of misplaced detour.

May it just be my deficient mind triggered by the coincidental presence of a handful of similar symbols and motives, but upon seeing Koji Morimoto's Beyond (part of the Animatrix collection of Matrix-related side stories) some years ago, I somehow felt it illustrated parts of Murakami's short-story The Wind-up Bird and Tuesday's Women (which is also the beginning of his novel Wind-up Bird Chronicle. Although the protagonist is nameless in the short-story, we shall go by the name used in the novel: Toru Okada.) Essentially, both protagonists, in search of their missing cat that went astray, stumble within a perfectly real surrounding into something surreal. As someone put it, "in the world of Haruki Murakami, bizarre events take place with striking regularity and, also with [striking] regularity, they are accepted as simply the stuff of everyday life."

The sense of something being not quite right takes on a more literal and empirically tangible form in Beyond. The old and notoriously haunted house and the yard surrounding it represent a glitch in the matrix, a blemish according to the official point of view, and all the consequences it entails. Rain coming from the ceiling despite a clear blue sky outside, glass bottles reassembling after being shattered, broken lightbulbs which flicker briefly, cans and kids floating in mid-air. The excitement the location inspires for the few children who know about it is but shortlived as a team of agents becomes aware of the glitch and immediately takes action to fix it.


Just to quench any anticipation you may have accumulated up to this point, as to the purpose and merit of this entry: there is not going to be any. Let's proceed then with my incoherent mental meandering. The protagonist's wife suggests that the cat is "in the yard of that vacant house at the end of the passage." According to Beyond, that's indeed where she is. During his search, the protagonist encounters a precocious teenage girl who smokes Hope cigarettes and says that maybe, three or four days ago, she's seen a cat of striped variety that could have been the protagonist's, tip of the tail slightly bent and all, stating that "our yard is a kind of highway for the neighborhood cats." She invites him into her garden, suggesting they wait together for the cat to appear. Similarly in Beyond, Yoko happens upon a young reckless boy who leads her to the strange run-down building he's found together with his friends, stating that he's seen her cat there.

Murakami often uses secondary characters more or less close to the protagonist or becoming acquainted with him through the course of the story, who certainly cause part of the puzzlement of both the narrator and the reader. In a good deal of cases, it's the wife of the protagonist who assumes said role and coincidentally, we don't have to look any further than Murakami's collection The Elephant Vanishes to find two examples of this. In The Wind-up Bird and Tuesday's Women, the protagonist's wife believes that the cat is in the yard of a vacant, run-down house at the end of dubious narrow alley, where she has already seen her several times before. The protagonist wonders what motives could have driven his wife to such a shady place, citing his wife's latent arachnophobia along the way, and by the end of the story, we still don't know anymore about this. Another example of such inscrutability is evident in The Second Bakery Attack, when an overwhelming and strangely unnatural hunger befalls the protagonist and his wife in the middle of the night. This triggers a memory of his teenage years when he and a friend robbed a bakery because they didn't have the money to buy bread. After relating the incident to his wife, she thinks that during that time he became infected with a curse and as the two of them lack anything substantial to eat, they decide to rob a McDonald's, to get rid of the curse and their hunger. The swiftness or "practiced efficiency," as the protagonist calls it, with which his wife tapes the numbers on the license plate of their car, the fact that she owns a Remington shotgun and ski masks when the two of them had never skied before, the confidence she displays during the burglary.
telephone, cat food, look out of window / veranda, wind-up bird / dove in slow-motion, vacant house, wall, asking neighbours

dog? rainbow?

"My guess is that the cat's probably in the yard of that vacant house at the end of the passage. The yard with the stone bird figurine. I've seen him there often enough. You know where I'm talking about?"

I go to the kitchen for that drink of water, turn on the FM radio, and trim my nails. They're doing a feature on Robert Plant's new album. I listen to two songs before my ears start to hurt and I switch the thing off. I go out to the porch to check the cat's food dish (0:30); the dried fish I put in the previous night hasn't been touched. Guess the cat really hasn't come back.

Standing there on the porch (1:25), I look at the bright spring sun slicing down into our tiny yard. Hardly the sort of yard that lingers fondly in the mind. The sun hits here only the briefest part of the day, so the soil is always dark and damp. Not much growing: just a couple of unremarkable hydrangeas. And I'm not terribly crazy about hydrangeas in the first place.

From a nearby stand of trees comes the periodic scree-ee-eech of a bird, sharp as a tightening spring. The "wind-up bird," we call it.

20100202

[juxtaposition] neontigers / mirror's edge

I'd acquired Peter Bialobrzeski's book, neontigers, a few years ago but I've only recently had the chance to play Mirror's Edge which proved to be an often tachycardic, at times frustrating (attributed to my lack of platforming skills) but ultimately rewarding experience. While the creators probably drew lots of inspiration from New York (in terms of street layout) and Tokyo (cf. here; the G-CANS drainage system etc) when designing the game's landscape, its clean, bright, geometric and futurist look also reminded me of megacities like Singapore and Shanghai as I had previously seen them presented in the photographs of Bialobrzeski.

(1)

"Neon is a natural product. And it is a rare one. Its concentration in the atmosphere is 1.8 x 10-3 by volume percent, or put more simply: 0.002 percent - this is all that exists of the gas, at least on our planet. Synthetic manufacturing? Impossible. That is the wonderful thing about neon light in its classic form: although it represents complete artificiality and cold modernity (very different from the twinkling gas lanterns in Julius Rodenberg's Paris), the raw material for neon tubes cannot be artificially manufactured.

The same applies to Peter Bialobrzeski's magical photographs in Neon Tigers. They too are - so to speak - from a natural source. Although they appear to be digital fiction, they are analogue. No mouse click has ever interfered with them, no picture editing has calculated them. Like neon lights, Bialobrzeski's images only give a hint of the chaos beneath their surface. The crowds that make their way through these megacities are often as invisible as the streams of electrons in the lamps that begin to glow on collision with the gas atoms. Because people are rare in these photo-graphs, the spectator's gaze is drawn to the artificial light. Sometimes the neon lights of Asia radiate from Bialobrzeski's pictures as if the concentration of 1.8 x 10-3 by volume percent were glowing all at once."

(peter bialobrzeski: neontigers. scanned and cropped. 1-3 singapore, 4-5 shenzen, 6-8 shanghai. introduction quoted from press text.)


(2)

"If you lose yourself in the images in Neon Tigers, you can imagine the photographer as a kind of flying eye. Childlike fantasies are conjured up: of a man who is floating through canyons of high-rise buildings, defying gravity, without limits - like in a PlayStation universe."


(dice: mirror's edge. in-game shots from various sources such as.
looks magnificent in motion!)

20100115

[quoth] félix guattari, gilles deleuze: comment se faire un corps sans organes

WHEN YOU WILL HAVE MADE HIM A BODY WITHOUT ORGANS, THEN YOU WILL HAVE DELIVERED HIM FROM ALL HIS AUTOMATIC REACTIONS AND RESTORED HIM TO HIS TRUE FREEDOM.


November 28, 1947:
How do you make yourself a Body without Organs?

At any rate, you have one (or several). It's not so much that it preexists or comes ready-made, although in certain respects it is preexistent. At any rate, you make one, you can't desire without making one. And it awaits you; it is an inevitable exercise or experimentation, already accomplished the moment you undertake it, unaccomplished as long as you don't. This is not assuring, because you can botch it. Or it can be terrifying, and lead you to your death. It is nondesire as well as desire. It is not at all a notion or a concept but a practice, a set of practices. You never reach the Body without Organs, you can't reach it, you are forever attaining it, it is a limit. People ask, So what is this BwO?—But you’re already on it, scurrying like a vermin, groping like a blind person, or running like a lunatic: desert traveler and nomad of the steppes. On it we sleep, live our waking lives, tight—fight and are fought—seek our place, experience untold happiness and fabulous defeats; on it we penetrate and are penetrated; on it we love. On November 28, 1947, Artaud declares war on the organs: To be done with the judgment of God, "for you can tie me up if you wish, but there is nothing more useless than an organ."'

Why such a dreary parade of sucked-dry, catatonicized, vitrified, sewn-up bodies, when the BwO is also full of gaiety, ecstasy, and dance? So why these examples, why must we start there? Emptied bodies instead full ones. What happened? Were you cautious enough? Not wisdom, cap­tion. In doses. As a rule immanent to experimentation: injections of caution. Many have been defeated in this battle. Is it really so sad and dangerous to be fed up with seeing with your eyes, breathing with your lungs, swallowing with your mouth, talking with your tongue, thinking with your brain, having an anus and larynx, head and legs? Why not walk on your head, sing with your sinuses, see through your skin, breathe with your belly [...] Substitute forgetting for anamnesis, experimentation for interpretation. Find your body without organs. Find out how to make it. It's a question of life and death, youth and old age, sad­ness and joy. It is where everything is played out.

the BwO is not at all the opposite of the organs. The organs are not its enemies. The enemy is the organism. The BwO is opposed not to the organs but to that organization of the organs called the organism. It is true that Artaud wages a struggle against the organs, but at the same time what he is going after, what he has it in for, is the organism: The body is the body. Alone it stands. And in no need of organs. Organism it never is. Organisms are the enemies of the body. The BwO is not opposed to the organs; rather, the BwO and its "true organs," which must be composed and positioned, are opposed to the organism, the organic organization of the organs.

Dismantling the organism has never meant killing yourself, but rather opening the body to connections that presuppose an entire assemblage, circuits, conjunctions levels and thresholds, passages and distributions of intensity, and territor­ies and deterritorializations measured with the craft of a surveyor.

No longer are there acts to explain, dreams or phantasies to interpret, childhood memories to recall, words to make signify; instead, there are colors and sounds, becomings and intensities (and when you become-dog, don't ask if the dog you are playing with is a dream or a reality, if it is "your goddam mother" or something else entirely). There is no longer a Self [Moi] that feels, acts, and recalls; there is "a glowing fog, a dark yellow mist" that has affects and experiences movements, speeds.

20091203

[concert] fever ray, cont'd

[concert] fever ray, kampnagel/hamburg, 02xıı2009

gerade erwachte ich aus einem lichtdurchfluteten, markerschütternden Fiebertraum,

20090923

[quoth] haruki murakami: the new york mining disaster

“You look a little glum these days,” he said. “Really?” I said. “You must be thinking about things too much in the middle of the night,” he said. “I’ve stopped thinking about things at night.” “How’d you manage that?” “When I get depressed, I start to clean. Even if it’s two or three in the morning. I wash the dishes, wipe off the stove, mop the floor, bleach the dish towels, organize my desk drawers, iron every shirt in sight,” he said, stirring his drink with his finger. “I do that till I’m exhausted, then I have a drink and go to sleep. In the morning I get up and by the time I’m putting on my socks I can’t even remember what it was I was thinking about.” I looked around again. As always, the room was clean and orderly. “People think of all kinds of things at three in the morning. We all do. That’s why we each have to figure out our own way of fighting it off.”

20090903

[quoth] max goldt: ein leben auf der flucht vor der koralle

Zwei hochschwangere Frauen gehen durch eine sehr gebirgige Wüste. Beide tragen äußerst hochhackige Schuhe, bewegen sich aber sehr flott. [...] Häufig begegnen sie Hinweisschildern, auf denen steht "Beratung 7 km". Manchmal auch zweien, einem, das z. B. sagt "Beratung 7 km" und einem andern mit "Beratung 79 km". Die Schwangeren sind aber gewitzt und folgen immer dem 7-km-Schild. Nur einmal nicht, als sie einer einsamen Mahnerin begegnen, einer vermummten Gestalt, die ein Schild hochhält, auf dem steht: "Frau, die sich beraten lässt, muß sehen, wo sie den Braten lässt!" Da mußt du Ausrufungszeichen um die Köpfe der Schwangeren zeichnen und sie dann in Richtung 79 km eilen lassen. (Anm.: der Sprecher gibt einem Zeichner Anreize für einen Comic namens "Die Schwangeren im Beratungsgebirge")
Ansonsten darf aber die Tatsache, daß eine Schwangerschaft normalerweise in eine Kindsgeburt mündet, keine Rolle spielen. Nie darf von Embryonen, Vätern oder Abtreibung die Rede sein. Meine Schwangeren sind zwar hochgradig gewölbt, aber völlig unbeeindruckt davon, scheinen gewissermaßen kein Kind zu erwarten. Ihre Bäuche benutzen sie dazu, um Aschenbecher und Racke-Rauchzart-Flaschen darauf abzustellen. In Zeichnungen ist so was ja möglich. Freilich lauern im Beratungsgebirge auch Gefahren, hauptsächlich das Röntgen-Rönsch*. Das Röntgen-Rönsch ist eine Frau, die auf einem Geparden durch die Wüste reitet, um schwangere Frauen zu röntgen. Den Röntgenapparat trägt sie wie eine Polaroidkamera um den Hals. Der Gepard trägt übrigens hochhackige Schnürstiefeletten, und da er Schuhfetischist ist, leckt er immer daran herum. Das gibt es. Ich kannte mal eine Katze in London namens Shirt-Licker, die jedem Mann auf den Schoß sprang und genüßlich an der Knopfleiste seines Hemdes herumleckte. T-Shirts und Damenblusen akzeptierte sie nicht. Der Gepard wird überdies, das ist der Hammer, von alternativen Energien betrieben. "Sein Windrad ist reizend", sagt die eine Schwangere. "Aber seine Abgase sind Nervensache", ergänzt die andere schmunzelnd. Überhaupt sscheinen die Schwangeren das Röntgen-Rönsch nicht sehr ernst zu nehmen. Sie führen auch stets ein Eimerchen mit Anti-Materie bei sich, mit dem sie das Rönsch begießen, worauf es sich vorübergehend in Nichts auflöst. Oft ist der Griff zum Anti-Materie-Eimerchen aber unnötig, denn in der Wüste stehen außer den Beratungswegweisern oft auch Schilder, die auf Schuhgeschäfte hinweisen, "Alt-Berliner Schuhpalast 900 km" etwa, und dann rast der Gepard los, und das auf ihm sitzende Rönsch weiß nicht, wie ihm geschieht. [...]

* benannt nach Hannelore Rönsch, die von 1991 bis 1994 Bundesministerin für Familie und Senioren im Kabinett Helmut Kohl war.

20090902

[quoth] eva hesse

Haben Sie Taschentücher dabei? Es ist keine Kleinigkeit, mit dreiunddreißig Jahren an einem Gehirntumor zu leiden. Na ja. Mein ganzes Leben war so.

[juxtaposition] eva hesse / kangding ray

20090624

[diktionær] ψυχή

breath; life, spirit; the immortal part of a person: soul; the spirit of a dead person: ghost; the conscious self, as the seat of emotions, desires; the organ of thought: mind, reason; (philosophy) the universal spirit; butterfly, moth

in greek mythology, psyche was the deification of the human soul; in ancient mosaics, she was often portrayed as a goddess with butterfly wings or a butterfly on her hand

20090620

[quoth] kim cascone: the aesthetics of failure


A few decades after the Futurists brought incidental noise to the foreground, John Cage would give permission to all composers to use any sound in composing music. At the 1952 debut of Cage's 4'33", David Tudor opened the piano keyboard lid and sat for the duration indicated in the title, implicitly inviting the audience to listen to background sounds, only closing and reopening the lid to demarcate three movements. The idea for 4'33" was outlined in a lecture given by Cage at Vassar College in 1948, entitled "A Composer's Confessions." The following year, Cage saw the white paintings of Robert Rauschenberg, and he saw in this an opportunity to keep pace with painting and push the stifled boundaries of modern music. Rauschenberg's white paintings combined chance, non-intention, and "minimalism" in one broad stroke, where the paintings revealed the "changing play of light and shadow and the presence of dust" (Kahn 1999).
Rauschenberg's white paintings were a powerful catalyst that helped inspire Cage to remove all constraints on what was considered music. Every environment could be experienced in a completely new way-as music.

(full text here)
Pop critic Colson Whitehead said that it is failure, that guides evolution. Perfection offers no incentive for evolution. Progress will only happen by embracing and utilizing your errors creatively. In a creative work progress with high emphasis on speed, finish and perfection, accidents and failure are often the key to becoming truly inventive and discovering new approaches.
John Cage once looked closely at a sheet of note paper and discovered that the music was already there: The small scratches, marks and dirt were notes that just needed to be traced.*
Enough about music. This is getting nowhere …
(Rhesus B)

*“I looked at my paper,” said Cage. “Suddenly I saw that the music, all the music, was already there.” He conceived of a procedure which would enable him to derive the details of his music from the little glitches and imperfections which can be seen on sheets of paper. It had symbolic as well as practical value; it made the unwanted features of the paper its most significant ones—there is not even a visual silence.

[random interlude]

for the purpose of comic relief

20090608

[quoth] heinrich böll: besichtigung

Er kletterte weiter über die Trümmer, vorbei an der Kommunionbank, in die linke der Conchen: die Fresken waren unversehrt, das Tageslicht fiel voll auf die blassen Farben. Auch der Nebenaltar war heil, schien sogar gesäubert zu sein: die Mensa war blank, und ein Blumenstrauß stand vor dem steinernen Tabernakel, und als er sich umblickte und in das Nebenschiff sah, waren die Beichtstühle leicht vorgeneigt, und endlich sah er ein Licht und ging darauf zu. Die Kerze brannte vor dem Muttergottesbild, und daneben hing das Kruzifix, das früher im Gewölbe vor dem Leuchter gehangen hatte. Die Kerze flackerte unruhig vor dem Gnadenbild, dessen hölzerner Grund sich leicht geworfen hatte und den goldenen Belag abwerfen zu wollen schien. Er war stellenweise schon heruntergebröckelt, und es lief wie weißliche Striemen über Mariens Gesicht. Nur die Blumen waren frisch und schön, wunderbare große Nelken mit fetten Köpfen, die in prallen Kapseln standen. Er versuchte zu beten, erschrak aber im gleichen Augenblick: er hörte Gesang unter sich, aus der Erde kam er. Der Schauer war nur kurz: die Krypta fiel ihm ein, die wohl unbeschädigt war. Die Stimmen klangen dünn, seltsam gefiltert, es schienen nur wenige zu sein.

20090514

[quoth] jonathan swift: gulliver's travels

We next went to the school of languages, where three professors sat in consultation upon improving that of their own country.
The first project was to shorten discourse by cutting polysyllables into one, and leaving out verbs and participles; because in reality all things imaginable are but nouns.
The other, was a scheme for entirely abolishing all words whatsoever: And this was urged as great advantage in point of health as well as brevity. For, it is plain, that every word we speak is in some degree a diminution of our lungs by corrosion; and consequently contributes to the shortening of our lives.

20090507

[quoth] laurent tailhade

From the aestheticization of violence to the definition of aesthetics as violence, the sentiment is summed up in Laurent Tailhade's reputed quip, after Auguste Vaillant's bombing of the Chamber of Deputies in 1893:

Qu'importent les victimes, si le geste est beau? [What do the victims matter, so long as the gesture is beautiful?] (quoted from, via j)

[quoth] michelangelo buonarroti: rime 247

Caro m’è ’l sonno, e più l’esser di sasso, mentre che ’l danno e la vergogna dura; non veder, non sentir m’è gran ventura; però non mi destar, deh, parla basso.
Welcome is sleep, more welcome the sleep of stone Whilst crime and shame continue in the land; My happy fortune, not to see or hear; Waken me not - in mercy, whisper low.

[quoth] ambrose bierce: the devil's dictionary

Siren, n. One of several musical prodigies famous for a vain attempt to dissuade Odysseus from a life on the ocean wave. Figuratively, any lady of splendid promise, dissembled purpose and disappointing performance.

20090430

[quoth] paul celan

Un subingener de suflete. Ein Seelen-Unteringenieur.

[quoth] paul celan: gegenlicht (in: mikrolithen sind's, steinchen)

Gegenlicht
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Ein plötzlicher Windstoß raffte das Gesicht weg und enthüllte den Schleier
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Sie fochten.
Und während sie fochten, häufte sich der Sand der Wüste, in der sie standen, am Rand ihrer Füße, langsam, Sandkorn um Sandkorn, und kletterte an ihnen hoch, Korn für Korn kletterte der Wüstensand an ihnen hoch. Sie fochten weiter. Der Sand kleidete ihre Füße ein, ihre Beine, ihre Knie, ihre Schenkel. Sie hielten nicht inne. Der Sand, der Sand der Wüste aber setzte sein Werk fort. Schon bedeckte er ihre Hüften, ihre Brüste, schon zog er das (Sand)hemd über ihre Schulter.
Und ein zweites, drittes und tausendstes Hemd......
Und begann von neuem: Sandschuh, Sandstrumpf, Sandhemd
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Nur ihre Klingen blieben blank und taten einander so wehe, daß den Sekundanten die Herzen stillstanden.
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